Crossing the Palace Fighting Fox Harem

Chapter 143 The Only One in the World

"My queen, do you want to leave or stay? Can you give me an answer as soon as possible?"

Yun Zhen's voice stirred up a huge whirlpool in Ji Anni's calm heart.

Should I stay or leave? This is a question that you must decide for yourself.

If I say leave, Yun Zhen will definitely take me out of the palace without hesitation; if I say stay, maybe I will never see Yun Zhen again in this life... and there are many murderous intentions hidden in this palace. Staying will only lead to more dangers. Maybe leaving is a relief.

At that moment, Ji Anni was indeed a little moved.

Everything in the palace had gradually made her feel tired, and the world under the vast sky outside the palace walls was full of new temptations for her. If she missed this opportunity, she didn't know when she would be able to leave the palace.

The more Ji Anni thought about it, the more she got lost in self-confusion.

Seeing that she hadn't responded for a long time, Yun Zhen asked anxiously in a low voice: "My Lady, what's wrong?"

Ji Anni's thoughts were interrupted by Yun Zhen, and she finally returned to reality.

Should I go? Or should I stay?

The pointer kept swinging back and forth, and Ji Anni looked for the strength to calm her mind from Yun Zhen's eyes. Her heart gradually calmed down, and the previous hesitation finally came to a line. The pointer that kept swinging in her mind finally stopped - indicating the final choice.

Ji Anni took a deep breath and finally made a decision.

"Kumin..."

When I say this name softly, I always feel a kind of attachment that is hard to let go. I think of everything when I first entered the palace, every meeting with him, and his care and concern for me... There are always some things that I can't let go of, and there is always some sadness and bitterness.

Yun Zhen looked at her quietly, as if he had already read the answer from her eyes.

"I..." Ji Anni said in a low but firm voice, "...I want to stay."

——Stay in the palace.

Ji Anni murmured as if trying to explain something: "It doesn't matter even if you're not here. Didn't I just say that... I've been in the palace for so long, I've learned to take care of myself... I will find the monster and find a way back by myself... Yun Zhen, don't worry, I will definitely be able to go back... You don't have to worry about me..."

"Your Majesty..." This expected answer made Yun Zhen feel even more uncomfortable.

It was me who brought Ji Anni into the palace, but now, for my own happiness, I selfishly and cruelly abandoned her in this dangerous palace. I felt nothing but guilt in my heart. If Ji Anni could loudly condemn me or scold myself for being irresponsible, maybe I would feel better.

But now, the other party's calmness and consideration were like a gentle knife, cutting deep wounds in his heart.

"Your Majesty, you can think about it for a few more days." Yun Zhen was afraid that she would regret it.

To leave or to stay, this question, at the lightest level, is about freedom, but at the most serious level, it is a matter of life and death.

"Don't think about it. I've thought about it very clearly." Ji Anni felt much more relaxed after giving the answer. "Even if I can't see you and Baogui Concubine again, I will be satisfied as long as I think of you living happily in a place where I can't see you. I wanted to ask you many times before, why didn't you take Bao Niangniang away... Maybe you gave up Baogui Concubine because you were loyal to the king. In fact, I have always wanted to tell you that even if the other party is the emperor, the monarch, the only person in the world you cannot betray or disobey, isn't Baogui Concubine the only person in the world you love?... Why can you be unfaithful to your true heart for the sake of loyalty to the king? I have always wanted to tell you this, I have always wanted to... But now you have finally made up your mind, that's great, Yun Zhen, it's really great... You have to be good to Bao Niangniang in the future, no matter where you are, you have to treat her well..."

Ji Anni couldn't stop talking, and even she herself felt that her words were a little strange. She was obviously not the mother of Concubine Baogui, but now she always felt like marrying off her daughter and solemnly entrusting Concubine Baogui to her.

Yun Zhen subconsciously squeezed Ji Annie's hand. He always felt that Ji Annie's expression was a little strange at this moment, as if she was trying hard to distract herself by talking, otherwise tears would well up in her red eyes.

"Yun Zhen, Concubine Bao is a good person and should not have suffered so many disasters. She has suffered enough and now she has finally found her own happiness... I am really, really happy for her... I am happy that she chose you. Concubine Baogui has always had good taste. The dresses and jewelry she gave me are so beautiful, so she also has good taste in choosing a lover..."

After laughing dryly twice, her voice became a little hoarse, and Ji Anni said with difficulty: "It's weird, what am I talking about? You are different from clothes... I, I... Anyway, I... I am very happy, really happy..."

"My queen." Seeing that she was a little incoherent, Yun Zhen worriedly advised, "Stop talking."

"No, don't let me stop..." Ji Anni squeezed Yun Zhen's hand tighter, and her slightly shaking shoulders announced that her patience had reached its limit, "Because I'm afraid, I'm afraid that if I stop talking... my tears won't stop."

I originally thought that as long as I tried hard to open my eyes wide, I would be able to stop the tears from falling.

But her vision gradually blurred by the mist, making Ji Anni realize her own naivety.

She tried hard not to blink, afraid that the tears would overflow from her eyes. But the more she tried to hold back, the faster the tears gathered. Finally, her eyes could no longer hold them, and with a "click", the tears fell heavily on the back of her hand.

I never knew before that tears could be as heavy as iron.

It was so nice to be able to cry, no longer having to endure, and I felt so relieved. Ji Anni wiped her eyes, raised her head, and said with a smile: "I am so happy, Yun Zhen... Whenever I think that you and Baogui Fei will soon be able to live together, I... I am so happy that I can't express it."

"Silly girl." Yun Zhen's voice was choked with sobs. He could no longer suppress his impulse and hugged Ji Anni tightly in his arms. "You don't have to be so patient. Why don't you scold me? Why don't you lose your temper with me? Do you know that you are torturing me?... I know I can't leave. I clearly know that I can't leave..."

The other party's voice above my head was hoarse, but still gentle.

Ji Anni closed her eyes in his arms, enjoying the happiness of being surrounded by his arms for a moment.

I still remember that he had hugged me like this before, when I was kneeling in Renhe Hall as punishment, and then it started to rain. Yun Zhen opened an umbrella for me and carried me back to Concubine Hall with numb legs.

Memories overlap, as if returning to the past.

The warmth in Yun Zhen's arms remained the same, still making me feel at ease. But the me who had secretly felt happy when Yun Zhen held me in his arms, now felt as if my internal organs were crushed and suffocated.

The cheek pressed against Yun Zhen’s chest quickly became hot, and Ji Anni knew that was the temperature of her tears.

She could hear Yun Zhen's heartbeat very clearly.

The sound of her heartbeat seemed to become language, telling her a fact clearly:

The one in that heart is Baogui Fei. She was, is, and will always be...

Yun Zhen, oh Yun Zhen, if I hold you like this, if I let you hear my heartbeat...

Can you also hear what it wants to say? Can you also understand my feelings?

From the first time I saw you, my heart has been beating wildly for you.

I am sure you are in my heart, but I don’t know how much space you occupy.

Even so, I still don't have the confidence to win you. I guess Baogui Fei must have occupied your heart, and I definitely don't love you as much as you love her. So I have nothing to say about my defeat, but I am also convinced of my defeat.

Actually, there is another reason why I can't leave the palace with you...

Ji Anni took a deep breath, and her breathing gradually became smoother and her mind became much calmer.

The reason I can't tell you is that I know... even if I leave the palace, I will definitely not be able to calmly watch you and Empress Bao being so sweet together.

I must have been in even greater pain at that time, Yun Zhen, I also hope you can forgive me...

Forgive me for wanting to hide myself in the palace, in a place where I cannot see your happiness and love...

Because I am also afraid of being vilified by envy and tortured by jealousy...