RPAGF Chapter 204 I don’t want to live anymore
Chapter 204 I don’t want to live anymore
Chapter 204 I Don’t Want to Live Anymore
Lord Kuang's eyes flickered slightly, but he still insisted: "Is it possible that the prince has softened his heart? Si Jing'an has the blood of the Shao family. If he is not removed, how can anyone feel at ease?"
"Are you at ease?" Feng Ziheng's expression remained unchanged, and he twirled his fingers slightly. "Even His Majesty has to consider the Empress Dowager's face. Shao Qin is the only one left in the Shao family. Don't forget, Si Jing'an's surname is Si, not Shao. Back then, Si Jingyu and Si Jingyuan had some Shao family members, but Si Jing'an looks exactly like Si Xingzhi. You might as well worry about the eldest daughter of the Si family instead of him!"
Lord Kuang disagreed: "Si Muyan is just a woman, why bother?"
In the end, he did not continue to dwell on the matter of dealing with Si Jing'an. Seeing that Feng Ziheng's eyebrows did not show any suspicion, and he seemed to be thinking about something, he did not disturb him and said goodbye and left.
After Lord Kuang left, Feng Ziheng opened his eyes, his gaze somewhat dim. After a long moment, he stood up, walked to the door, and asked, "Where's Zizhou?"
Someone immediately came over and replied, "Reporting to the prince, the doctor gave the fourth master medicine and he is now resting."
Feng Ziheng nodded to indicate that he understood, then turned back to the table and looked at the book that his second sister had left for Feng Zizhou. He hadn't had time to read it before in Songji Village, but now he had the time.
He opened it and flipped through it, and the corners of his mouth curled up unconsciously.
That night, Si Xingzhi collapsed with a persistent high fever. He was in a daze and kept talking nonsense. Zhu Laoer went to the county town to invite a famous doctor, but the doctor just shook his head.
"This gentleman has lost his spirit, I'm afraid..."
The second sister was anxious: "Doctor, my father was fine during the day, why is he like this now? Please take another look and prescribe some medicine!"
The doctor said in embarrassment, "I'm afraid he must have been extremely shocked. I'll prescribe some medicine for him to try first, but please seek medical advice as soon as possible."
He is the most famous doctor in Fenghuang County. If you want to hire a better one, you can only go to Lingnan City.
The next day, Zhu Laoer and He Laiqian went to ask several doctors to come back. When they saw Si Xingzhi's condition, they all shook their heads and said that it was impossible.
"It's better to prepare early than later."
The younger brother burst into tears, causing Xiaoxia, who was outside and didn't know what was going on, to start crying too, making the atmosphere in the room even more tense.
After taking the medicine, Si Xingzhi regained some consciousness in the afternoon, but his face was still as pale as before.
His eyes were cloudy, and he couldn't see anyone clearly. He could only mutter to himself: "Daddy is useless, he can't protect you...Daddy is useless, he knew that you died unjustly, but he didn't even have the ability to redress your grievances...Daddy is useless...useless..."
Seeing Daddy like this, how could the younger sister and younger brother hold back their tears?
Aunt Jin's eyes were red too. She followed Shao Qin to marry into the Marquis's mansion, and then the mansion was confiscated and exiled. She followed all the way, and finally got to know the master. He was a very kind master who never got angry with them, the servants. Although he seemed unreliable later, in fact, how could the master not love his children?
She wanted to ask the young ladies to come over and comfort the master, but when she turned around, she saw her younger sister standing under the eaves in a daze.
"Miss Third?"
Without looking back, the younger sister murmured, "The old people in the village said it would be sunny today, but it rained for no reason."
“…” Aunt Jin felt that now was not the time to worry about whether it would rain or not.
The younger sister added, "Dad's sick. I know how to make him better, but if I can't do it, what's the point? I used to hear people gossiping at the food store about how power is the greatest tonic, but I didn't believe it. Now I know it's true."
She stretched out her hand to catch the rain. The cold rain felt a bit stinging on her hand, but she did not retract her hand, letting the rain splash on her hands and body.
Aunt Jin couldn't bear to watch this and wanted to stop her to prevent her from catching a cold. Just as she was about to reach out, she heard a noise behind her. It was Si Muyan coming over with the freshly boiled medicine.
"Miss, the master has woken up, but he keeps talking nonsense."
Si Muyan nodded and went in. She saw that Si Xingzhi was indeed somewhat sober. However, when she wanted to feed him medicine, he turned his head away and refused to drink it. He kept saying the same sorry words over and over again.
"You don't want to take the medicine?" Si Muyan raised an eyebrow and looked at him, "Are you planning to abandon mom and us? Xiao An hasn't grown up yet, so Xiao Xia'er would call you grandpa!"
Si Xingzhi was moved for a moment, but his eyes soon dimmed again, and his flushed cheeks became even redder because of his movements.
Si Muyan continued, "Are you really going to die? Are you not going to seek justice for your elder and second brothers?"
Si Xingzhi turned around: "How... possible..."
"There's hope only when we're alive. Death is the final rest of everything." Si Muyan took the medicine bowl and said, "If I die, how can I be sorry that my elder and second brothers risked their lives to protect our safety?"
Si Xingzhi got sick quickly and recovered quickly. After he figured it out, he cooperated with the medication and his fever subsided quickly. After two days of recuperation, he was able to walk around again.
After he recovered, Si Muyan brought her younger sister to accompany him and asked, "We were still young when we were exiled. You and your brothers probably thought you would stay here forever, so you never told us about the past. But now it's different. Now that we know that the deaths of our eldest and second brothers were not normal, we must always consider the future and be careful and vigilant. So, Dad, why was our Marquis' Mansion exiled?"
In the past, Si Xingzhi was indeed reluctant to mention anything about Kyoto. After all, after being exiled, there was no possibility of returning to the capital. They became ordinary farmers and would stay in the countryside for the rest of their lives. Why bother thinking about the prosperity of the past?
But his daughter's words also made him clearer. Before, it was Jingyu, then Jingyuan, and then what? Would it be three daughters, or would it just be Xiaoan?
Si Xingzhi sighed softly and nodded.
"You've grown up now. The entire Si family depends on you for support. I don't need to hide the past from you anymore."
"Your maternal grandfather was the renowned General Shao, and I imagine you have some impression of him. However, eleven years ago, General Shao passed away, and your three uncles were subsequently found guilty of treason and collaborating with the enemy, a crime punishable by the death of nine generations of the family. However, the emperor, with a kind heart, remembered General Shao's contributions to defending the country and only confiscated the property of the Shao family's direct and indirect branches, and executed them. Other officials who had close ties with him were dismissed from their posts, stripped of their titles, and exiled, including our Anle Marquisate."
My younger sister lost her patience and asked, "Dad, General Shao was loyal to his country, so why are his sons and nephews considered traitors? Among them..."
Si Xingzhi looked up at her and said, "The emperor has made such a ruling. Who dares to object? Your mother led the Shao family army and knelt outside the palace, begging the emperor to re-examine the case. But she didn't understand that justice is never in the hands of those who are right. Loyalty to the emperor and patriotism? How can loyalty to the emperor and patriotism compare to self-preservation? General Shao will probably never know until his death that it was precisely because of his bravery and fearlessness, his life of serving the country and the people, that brought disaster to his family!"